Today was a beautiful and difficult day to say the least. We began the day with a short intimate ceremony at the cemetery to say goodbye to our beloved aunt, daughter, sister, niece, and friend. Later in the afternoon we had a celebratory church service and memorial in her honor.
Our family sat in the front row, but as the service began, I turned to look behind me and saw a sanctuary full of people that came to remember and celebrate the beautiful woman of God that Amy Schultz was. The site brought me to tears as I realized that the same impact Amy had on me was also the impact she had on that entire church full of people...and then some. The service was beautiful, full of worship (just as she would like it) and wonderfully heartfelt speeches from my mother (Amy's sister), two of Amy's friends, and one of Amy's teacher colleagues. The words they all spoke described the Amy we all knew. She was a unique, fierce, romantic, outspoken, and faithful woman...and never once was she afraid to be just that. I pray that one day, I too will be remembered the way she will always be.
Amy taught me many lessons over the years: to appreciate myself, family is irreplaceable, and to love my God....but today I may have learned the greatest lesson from her. Amy was a strong woman through and through...but she knew that strength did not mean going at it alone.
Like Amy I am the oldest of 3 sisters. I am outspoken, creative, romantic, unique, and at times fierce. But I have always struggled with a need to be strong for others, particularly my two younger sisters. I have done my best to hide my tears, my worries, and my uncertainties, in hopes that they would be able to rely on me for strength when they felt too weary to muster up their own. Amy was a care taker of all, but she was not afraid to let her guard down, because she knew that God blessed her with loving family and friends to be her strength when she was weary as she had always been for them. Today in church I sat in the front row, staring at the pink and white flower arrangements humming softly to the song being sung. Out of no where I fell apart, I collapsed in on myself shaking and weeping into my hands. My sister put her arms around me and instead of lifting my head and wiping my tears, I buried my face in her shoulder and continued my sobs of mourning. I have always felt blessed to have my two little sisters, but today, for the first time, I let them be for me what I have struggled for 18 years to be for them: a shoulder to cry on, a comfortable embrace, and the strength I needed when I felt I had none left. Today I truly experienced the unconditional love and support that can only be found between sisters.
Thank you Amy, Andrea, and Mom. It may have taken me a few years but thank you for teaching me that being strong does not mean you cannot be afraid, sad, angry, or mournful. Being strong does not mean you cannot show those feelings to others that you love. But instead, being strong means knowing that even if you do fall apart in your sister's arms...you know you will be OK, for your sister will be the first one to start piecing you back together.
Showing posts with label breast cancer research. Show all posts
Showing posts with label breast cancer research. Show all posts
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Monday, November 12, 2012
In Memory of Amy
Last night the world lost a great mother, teacher, aunt, daughter, sister, mentor, and woman of God. She is now the angel she always lived like on earth.
Amy Snow Schultz was 41 years old when she was tragically diagnosed with Inflammatory Breast Cancer (IBC).
IBC is a rare and extremely aggressive form of cancer that is believed to make up only 1-5% of breast cancer cases. When Inflammatory Breast Cancer is diagnosed, the patient is often times already in stage III or IV of cancer due to the lack of traditional symptoms in early stages of this cancer. IBC forms as a mesh through the muscular tissues of the breast blocking the lymph nodes.
When Amy was diagnosed she was told that the cancer may have been living inside her body for years before it was diagnosed. She went in for a completely unrelated check up and happened to have the doctor look at a spot on her breast. The skin had a dimpled look, a symptom known as "Orange Peel" skin, due to the resemblance to the pitted skin of a citrus fruit. She was sent to an Oncology specialist that diagnosed her with IBC. Fortunately for her, the cancer cells were HER2 cells, short for Human Epidermal Growth Hormone 2. These cells were equipped with receptors on the outside that responded to Human Epidermal Growth Hormone 2. When this hormone is around the cancer cells, it attaches to receptors and fuels the reproductive process of the cancer cells. It sounds terrible that a hormone that naturally occurs in our bodies would fuel the cancer life cycle, however there is a positive side to this. When a cancer cell has a receptor on the outside, it gives doctors an easy target to attack. Many type of cancer medications target these receptors. Now HER2 cells are not the only kind of cancer cells with receptors for human hormones, but they were the type present in Amy's situation.
Amy battled hard for several years, she underwent many types of medication regimens and chemo, lost her hair several times, and experienced times when all she wanted to do was give up. But her faith in God kept her going, and she was able to beat the cancer and receive a clear scan about a month ago. The whole world it seemed rejoiced.
Less than 2 weeks ago she had another scan that showed the cancer was back. While everyone wanted to be hopeful, the reality was we knew this fight would be much harder to win. The doctors then informed her that her HER2 cells had turned into Triple Negative cells.
Triple Negative cells are much more difficult to treat than other cancer cells. The term "Triple Negative" refers to the lack of all hormone receptors on the cancer cells surface. These cells do not need the same conditions to reproduce and do not have the same weaknesses as others.
The cancer had spread to her liver in the form of tumors, and her liver was not capable of processing Chemo Therapy. Surgery was not an option due to the weakness the rest of her body was suffering from. Amy was given a short time to come to terms with the unavoidable fact that her body could no longer battle the monster inside her.
Last night she passed away peacefully with her husband by her side. She left a legacy behind through her amazing husband and son, as well as the ways she has touched the earth with her presence. She will forever be remembered as the strongest woman I and many others knew and I will do my best to honor her name as long as I live, by increasing awareness and encouraging early detection.
Amy, I love you miss you more than words can express. It doesn't make sense that you were taken so young, but even though my human brain cannot comprehend, I know that God's will has been done. You have been a living representation of what a Godly Woman is through your caring, love, nurturing, and open mind. Even after life on earth has ended, I know you will continue to watch over me. You will sing at my wedding, your voice in the wind through the trees. You will be a part of my own family in the name my daughter (if I am blessed with one) carries. You will be the woman I aspire to be. From this point on, I will wait patiently till I can cross through Heaven's gates and be reunited with you.
Love always,
Chicken butt
P.S. I will always remember this lesson from you: Never hold up a green marker and say it's purple in hopes of clearing your name of blame...no matter how cute you are.
Amy Snow Schultz was 41 years old when she was tragically diagnosed with Inflammatory Breast Cancer (IBC).
IBC is a rare and extremely aggressive form of cancer that is believed to make up only 1-5% of breast cancer cases. When Inflammatory Breast Cancer is diagnosed, the patient is often times already in stage III or IV of cancer due to the lack of traditional symptoms in early stages of this cancer. IBC forms as a mesh through the muscular tissues of the breast blocking the lymph nodes.
When Amy was diagnosed she was told that the cancer may have been living inside her body for years before it was diagnosed. She went in for a completely unrelated check up and happened to have the doctor look at a spot on her breast. The skin had a dimpled look, a symptom known as "Orange Peel" skin, due to the resemblance to the pitted skin of a citrus fruit. She was sent to an Oncology specialist that diagnosed her with IBC. Fortunately for her, the cancer cells were HER2 cells, short for Human Epidermal Growth Hormone 2. These cells were equipped with receptors on the outside that responded to Human Epidermal Growth Hormone 2. When this hormone is around the cancer cells, it attaches to receptors and fuels the reproductive process of the cancer cells. It sounds terrible that a hormone that naturally occurs in our bodies would fuel the cancer life cycle, however there is a positive side to this. When a cancer cell has a receptor on the outside, it gives doctors an easy target to attack. Many type of cancer medications target these receptors. Now HER2 cells are not the only kind of cancer cells with receptors for human hormones, but they were the type present in Amy's situation.
Amy battled hard for several years, she underwent many types of medication regimens and chemo, lost her hair several times, and experienced times when all she wanted to do was give up. But her faith in God kept her going, and she was able to beat the cancer and receive a clear scan about a month ago. The whole world it seemed rejoiced.
Less than 2 weeks ago she had another scan that showed the cancer was back. While everyone wanted to be hopeful, the reality was we knew this fight would be much harder to win. The doctors then informed her that her HER2 cells had turned into Triple Negative cells.
Triple Negative cells are much more difficult to treat than other cancer cells. The term "Triple Negative" refers to the lack of all hormone receptors on the cancer cells surface. These cells do not need the same conditions to reproduce and do not have the same weaknesses as others.
The cancer had spread to her liver in the form of tumors, and her liver was not capable of processing Chemo Therapy. Surgery was not an option due to the weakness the rest of her body was suffering from. Amy was given a short time to come to terms with the unavoidable fact that her body could no longer battle the monster inside her.
Last night she passed away peacefully with her husband by her side. She left a legacy behind through her amazing husband and son, as well as the ways she has touched the earth with her presence. She will forever be remembered as the strongest woman I and many others knew and I will do my best to honor her name as long as I live, by increasing awareness and encouraging early detection.
Amy, I love you miss you more than words can express. It doesn't make sense that you were taken so young, but even though my human brain cannot comprehend, I know that God's will has been done. You have been a living representation of what a Godly Woman is through your caring, love, nurturing, and open mind. Even after life on earth has ended, I know you will continue to watch over me. You will sing at my wedding, your voice in the wind through the trees. You will be a part of my own family in the name my daughter (if I am blessed with one) carries. You will be the woman I aspire to be. From this point on, I will wait patiently till I can cross through Heaven's gates and be reunited with you.
Love always,
Chicken butt
Friday, December 12, 2008
My First Findings
Source for this blog: http://envirocancer.cornell.edu/Factsheet/General/fs5.biology.cfm#c
So I again embarked on a journey through the wonderful world of online research! And this time I actually got somewhere! I typed into google the subject of: "breast cancer biology" and the first website I pulled up (the above url address)proved to be one of interest for me! I actually found out quite a bit of information that I never knew before I read it there. Here is a brief summary of my findings!
Cancer occurs when something goes wrong in the genetic code of a cell. It can be a deletion, insertion, or rearrangement of the DNA which in turn causes th cell to mass produce at a rate that is unstoppable. Normal cells, even those which have a mutation generally can fix the problem during cell division; cancerous cells that have the mutated tumor supressor function loose the ability of their "brakes" during the cell division process and just continue dividing the gene with the same mutation, which in turn start the vicious cycle of cell replication. This kind of occurence is more common in types of cells which undergo frequent replication such as breast, skin, uterin, and colon tissue. In woman, estrogine is the hormone to blame for the extensive division of cells in the breast tissue and uterine tissue. When a young female is born she is born with just one duct in the area where breast tissue develops. The development of tissue begins and spikes at the time of puberty, due to increased release of estrogen, however the continuous division/replication of cells continues until a woman has had her first full term pregnancy. After a full term pregnancy the woman's milk ducts have fully matured to make lactating possible; once these ducts are fully matured the division process stops and there is a much lower risk of cancer developing in the cell because of new causes. Because of the fact that before a full term pregnancy a woman's breast tissue cells have no matured and stopped the division process, young women and adolescent women are much more suseptible to cancer causing agents such as environmental estrogens. Environmental estrogens act as estrogen in the female body and may induce breast cell division. I haven't quite found what such chemicals these are or what they are found in.
But that's a brief summary of the information I took in tonight. Quite interesting, to understand the disease we must understand everything from its origins to the behavior of the cells, to the biological composition of the cells. Again, the URL at the top of this blog was quite a wonderful resource, for more information please visit it!
12:38 am December 13, night one of research was a success!
So I again embarked on a journey through the wonderful world of online research! And this time I actually got somewhere! I typed into google the subject of: "breast cancer biology" and the first website I pulled up (the above url address)proved to be one of interest for me! I actually found out quite a bit of information that I never knew before I read it there. Here is a brief summary of my findings!
Cancer occurs when something goes wrong in the genetic code of a cell. It can be a deletion, insertion, or rearrangement of the DNA which in turn causes th cell to mass produce at a rate that is unstoppable. Normal cells, even those which have a mutation generally can fix the problem during cell division; cancerous cells that have the mutated tumor supressor function loose the ability of their "brakes" during the cell division process and just continue dividing the gene with the same mutation, which in turn start the vicious cycle of cell replication. This kind of occurence is more common in types of cells which undergo frequent replication such as breast, skin, uterin, and colon tissue. In woman, estrogine is the hormone to blame for the extensive division of cells in the breast tissue and uterine tissue. When a young female is born she is born with just one duct in the area where breast tissue develops. The development of tissue begins and spikes at the time of puberty, due to increased release of estrogen, however the continuous division/replication of cells continues until a woman has had her first full term pregnancy. After a full term pregnancy the woman's milk ducts have fully matured to make lactating possible; once these ducts are fully matured the division process stops and there is a much lower risk of cancer developing in the cell because of new causes. Because of the fact that before a full term pregnancy a woman's breast tissue cells have no matured and stopped the division process, young women and adolescent women are much more suseptible to cancer causing agents such as environmental estrogens. Environmental estrogens act as estrogen in the female body and may induce breast cell division. I haven't quite found what such chemicals these are or what they are found in.
But that's a brief summary of the information I took in tonight. Quite interesting, to understand the disease we must understand everything from its origins to the behavior of the cells, to the biological composition of the cells. Again, the URL at the top of this blog was quite a wonderful resource, for more information please visit it!
12:38 am December 13, night one of research was a success!
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
And So the Journey Begins
My past weeks experiences have produced a brand new interest to pursue in my spare time, I'm starting my own research process. I'm starting from the very beginning, from the primary question of : "What is a cancer cell and how does it work?" and hopefully after I have thoroughly familiarized myself with the basic understanding of a single cell I will work my way along the research ladder to questions such as: "What effects the development of Breast Cancer?" "What kind of medications are already approved, and what medications are still in the testing phase?" "What exactly do these medications do, chemically and physically, that attacks the cancer cells?" "How exactly does chemotherapy and radiation work, what chemicals are used, and is there any possible way to simulate the conditions within the body using other materials/drugs that would mirror the effects on cancer cells?"
So I began my research...well, I tried to begin my research, unfortunately since it's already past 8 pm my resources have been narrowed to this computer in an ASU computer lab. Anyone who knows me knows that I AM NOT a computer person. I'm the type of person who likes to have my reading materials physically in front of me, highlighter and pencil in hand, ready to make note of anything I find useful or interesting. Undoubtedly I have found several very good resources, peer reviewed and from professionals with years of experience. But even though the quality of the information is superb, I can't seem to retain anything by just trolling my eyes along the LCD screens of text. So I've decided that my research process will begin in the library where I can pull as many books off the shelf as I please, lay them out in front of me, and dive into the richness of written words.
So for now I shall leave you with some of my favorite quote and sayings I heard/saw this weekend:
"Forget the whales, save the boobs"
"Save Second Base"
"I'm here for the boobs" (worn by a supporter who made it to several of our cheering stations)
"Save the ta ta's"
"You don't have to have a lump to have breast cancer" (referring to IBC aka Inflammatory Breast Cancer)
"Got Mammogram?"
"Caution: Many Walkers"
Goodnight everyone. May God bless you and keep you through another wonderful night we are so fortunate to have been given.
~Amanda~
So I began my research...well, I tried to begin my research, unfortunately since it's already past 8 pm my resources have been narrowed to this computer in an ASU computer lab. Anyone who knows me knows that I AM NOT a computer person. I'm the type of person who likes to have my reading materials physically in front of me, highlighter and pencil in hand, ready to make note of anything I find useful or interesting. Undoubtedly I have found several very good resources, peer reviewed and from professionals with years of experience. But even though the quality of the information is superb, I can't seem to retain anything by just trolling my eyes along the LCD screens of text. So I've decided that my research process will begin in the library where I can pull as many books off the shelf as I please, lay them out in front of me, and dive into the richness of written words.
So for now I shall leave you with some of my favorite quote and sayings I heard/saw this weekend:
"Forget the whales, save the boobs"
"Save Second Base"
"I'm here for the boobs" (worn by a supporter who made it to several of our cheering stations)
"Save the ta ta's"
"You don't have to have a lump to have breast cancer" (referring to IBC aka Inflammatory Breast Cancer)
"Got Mammogram?"
"Caution: Many Walkers"
Goodnight everyone. May God bless you and keep you through another wonderful night we are so fortunate to have been given.
~Amanda~
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